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Help Me Improve My Grades ...

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Some people may know me because of my book ‘Een hemel zonder sterren’, others may know me as one of the Sophianum’s enthusiastic GSA (re)founders, or simply as a village/city fellow.

At the age of nine I was introduced to the mental health services. I struggled with severe anxiety and also experienced difficulties socially. At a very young age I already lived with feelings of loneliness and being ‘different’. Eventually, at the age of 14, I ended up in a depression and started a series of therapies that still seem endless. The depression has persisted for 6 years and the anxiety symptoms have taken the form of constant stress. Furthermore, I have been struggling with anorexia for several years.

All these words that I prefer to not associate with myself make daily life feel colorless and exhausting to me, basically meaningless. I wake up feeling stressed, am constantly anxious during the day, and can’t fall asleep at night because of worrying. Where my body prefers to move to shake the stress off and my anorexia likes me to tear myself down, my depression likes to see me in bed all day. I know I won’t be able to keep this up for many more years, because I’m burned out and I don’t want anymore.